Saturday, January 26, 2013
I've had three jobs in my life, started at age 19 as a nurse(LPN) then left that job to be with my life partner(still with him too!), started working as a sales clerk/dispatcher in a gravel quarry in the city, and when we moved home to the country I became a laborer in the Christmas Tree industry. It was seasonal work and it was nice to have the winters off but we've struggled financially for years. I'm tired of fighting and scraping to pay every bill, I need a full time job for a few years. I'd like to retire without a lot of dept.
Thing is...I'm scared! I'm very shy around new people and don't have a heck of a lot of self confidence in new situations. I'm always so afraid to make a major error .I embarrass easily . I've not had to travel in the winter and a new job will require driving 30-40 minutes .
I'm a hard worker, I don't take time off and I usually adjust to whatever is asked of me..I know I can do this but none the less...I'm terrified.
I wish I'd made better life decisions when I was younger...but I can't go back. On that note, I'm off to Spark away the day. The weather is better here, no wind and only -10, sun is shining and snowshoes are waiting! Life really is good.