Letting Go of the Demons
Friday, January 25, 2013
Ok so I am back up and running. Taking one day at a time and enjoying every waking moment with my babies. Since my last entry my children and I have had to flee negativity to be afforded more opportunities and more blessings. It was our calling to do and see what God has in store for us.
Now I must say it is a slow start, but we will get to where we want to be. My children have better opportunities in school, I just found out that my test scores are well enough to get into the RN program here at a local college. After careful consideration I have set short and long term goals which I ultimately plan to achieve.
Now i am not free of all of my demons, but there is a sense of peace as it is coming. Still going through this bitter divorce and still battling the weight. The two worst demons you can have at the same time. Although neither will be easy to get rid of I am determined to do it. I will have to take baby steps with the weight and I also made a promise to my children that I would quit smoking. The stress from the emotional and mental abuse that I encounter well lets just say I turn to God and let him handle it. I refuse to let bitterness destroy my happiness.
So now I am making plans to start watching what I eat and try to walk around the track if not every day then every other day. I will get there it is only a matter of time and right now it starts with me.