Friday, January 25, 2013
Totally fell off the wagon. ugh. I'm finally ready to pick myself up and start over. I think. I have been great with the excuses lately.
So the holidays weren't bad....but then that turned into a horrible upper respiratory virus...turned into crazy busy post holiday trying to do stuff while still not feeling well...then birthday party for my daughter...then supposed to catch up because finally not sick....which turned into strep throat....started to feel better but was so overwhelmed by everything that I just sort of stopped doing anything. Started to make the usual excuses (not that overweight, I really do eat healthy (which is true, I haven't gained weight since I was pregnant eight years ago, I just can't lose it), etc.). The recent awful cold and snowy and icy weather has also provided another convenient excuse.
However, I really do want this. I really do. And it's time to get re-committed and do it. I have to start taking care of myself. I have a huge family history of obesity, diabetes, heart disease. I may have bad genetics, but I do not have to compound it by not doing what I need to do to take care of myself and stay healthy.
So I need to learn to say no to some things and not take the weight of the world that I have to do everything. So I'm going to stop cleaning my house. Ok, kidding. Kind of :-) But I'm working on it. For example, I was asked to be a trainer at a three day conference. At first I was excited--partly because of the ego boost, partly because I liked the prospect of a hotel room to myself--but then I started to think of how it would kill my work schedule, I'd miss time with my family, and honestly the training curriculum kind of sucked when I was a trainer for the same one a couple years ago and I didn't personally get much out of it. I love training and teaching others, but I decided to say no. And I need to say no more often.
I need to get better about focus. I'm so scattered and so doing a million things at once. Multi-tasking is really not productive, at all, but I'm always trying to do so much that I end up doing four things at once and none of them well. Need to figure out how to be more productive.
I also started drinking diet pop and coffee again, badly. Was back to several diet pepsi a day. Ugh. So I've been weaning off that, again. I enjoyed the headache, really. Not. So I'm back to an occasional coffee and no more diet. That means I drink more water.
Need to be better about forcing myself to work out and getting off my butt and doing it. I really need to make sure I watch my food intake, and not just guess. Need to have lots of healthy options and then actually eat them. Need to not have junk food in the house because my self control is not always good and why tempt when I don't have to? Need to stop the mindless snacking.
So I'm back. Because healthy beats unhealthy. And I want to be healthy.