Anxiety, Indulging, and a borrowed swimming suit.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Today is the kind of day where I want to sit and do nothing.. but I have too much to get done. This morning we went and filed out taxes.. and I am glad to say that we are getting a decent amount back. Just in time to pay a bunch of bills. *Sigh*

I'm also working on packing up our bag to go to Minnesota tomorrow. I haven't seen most of my family since August.. and some I haven't seen since before I lost any of the 77 pounds. So excited to see them all. I had to borrow a swimming suit from my sister-in-law because it is at a hotel so at some point we will be swimming.. and my top is way too saggy. I couldn't find a suit to buy.. and then realized I was not ready to buy one yet.. because I'll already need a new one for summer because I do not plan on being this size still when summer hits!

Right now just enjoying time with the kids. I know I will be indulging on food this weekend but I do know I will not let myself go too overboard. I don't want to set myself back too far.. I have an anniversary to celebrate in 3 weeks at which I know I am going to let myself indulge as well. It's been awhile since I just let myself eat whatever I wanted really.. so I'm gonna just go with it. Gonna make the best choices I can though. Plus.. I am bringing my sportband so I can go walking with my mama. She's definitely been one of my biggest motivators from the beginning.

Right now I kinda have some anxiety. I'm just starting to think about future things.. my anniversary, hitting goal (a little ways off yet.. but still anxious for it and not knowing how maintaining will go), going shopping for new clothes. I admit the idea of shopping for new clothes almost gives me an anxiety attack. It's been a LONG time since I've fit into the sizes I am at now.. and I never found anything that fit the way I liked. I know I am getting to the point of being able to wear cute clothes because I like the way they fit.. and not buying them just because they do fit. I really wanted to wear a dress for our anniversary but at this point I don't want to spend the money on something that I don't know we have the money for. Maybe this gives a reason for a real 'date' outside of just our anniversary? I want a nice date with my husband where I can dress nice and feel pretty.
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  • SCRAP317
    Good for you! I know you will have a wonderful time in Minnesota. Go to discount stores like Salvation Army and Good Will. Check out Ross/Marshalls/TJMaxx for a dress. I know you can get a huge selection of dresses at Ross/Marshalls for between $10-25. That's always my first stop for dresses! Good luck and have a safe trip!
    1852 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Shop off the internet and avoid having to shop. Anxiety is just worry. It does no good as Dr. Wayne Dyer says. emoticon
    1852 days ago
    congratulations on the 77# lost. You'll have fun meeting those that haven't seen you in a while. That will be a big motivator in itself.

    1852 days ago
    Wow, you sure do have a lot on your plate. God Bless the giant steps you have taken so far. Really if I would suggest anything. Stay in this moment... That is the most important moment of your life. Right now.

    Good luck and have fun with your family.

    1853 days ago
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