“Those who forget the past are condemned to repeat it.” ― Chuck Palahniuk, Choke
Friday, January 25, 2013
I hesitate to say I would change anything about my past. the main thing I always think I would change is that I would finish college & have gotten a degree. But....then I probably would not have met & married my husband who is the best man in the world & would not be the Mom to our 4 beautiful children which is the achievement I am most proud of...so...., instead of wishing to change the past here are the lessons I would like to learn from my past:
1) appreciate who I am, how I look & the body I have today.
I was naturally thin for YEARS....& always wished to be thinner, prettier, etc. The body I have today is not perfect, but, it is mine & it takes care of me & does amazing things.
2) just because you can do something, does not mean you should do it.
Back to the young naturally thin years - I ate anything & everything I wanted & it never affected my weight when I was young & that was my only concern. I should have been fueling & caring for my body & thinking about nutrition & health. I also have always been able to drink beer "with the guys". Frankly, my tolerance is amazing. But just because I CAN drink lots of beer certainly does not mean I should. & just because I CAN order pizza or go through a drive through easily - does not mean I should.
3) the most important relationship to culitvate is the relationship you have with yourself.
I have always been an involved, perhaps over-protective, Mom - the friend people reach out to when they are troubled - the daughter/granddaughter who remembers b-days, etc. & all that is awesome & I am proud of it. But - I am in the place in my life where I finally realize that the more I care for myself - the happier I will be & then I can be even better at all those things.
So I guess the recurring theme here is to put myself on my own list. & not just on the list for fun things like GNO & parties, but for healthy things to be the best me.