I feel crappy. I skipped my morning workout today. And now that it's night I have no motivation to do it. I guess I'm a morning workout person. I danced around the apt for a few minutes, but then I didn't have enough energy to do that. I also skipped breakfast because I was running late. Is that why I'm so...bla?

It's only 5pm but I'm tempted to go to sleep so this day will be over and I can restart tomorrow. Actually I want to sleep for the next three months and wake up 30lbs lighter. That's what I want. No effort weight loss. If I believed in God I would pray for that. Or for the strength to get through the next three months, but I'm a scientific atheist so what to do? Rely on yourself would be my usual answer but today it's not working.

My mom used to ask me where an atheist gets hope from. I usually stick my nose in the air and give some intellectual retort about hope not being a theistic concept. But right now I'm feeling hopeless. If only I believed in magic.

I didn't believe in Santa either...