Friday, January 25, 2013
It's been forever since I updated! What's that about? Probably a bit to do with the fact that I haven't got anything SP happy to report.
Time to fess up.
I think its a combination of the holidays (which included my exercise class ending and my gym being closed), newly being on the pill for the first time, and being super into this new relationship that has lead to where I am right now: feeling gross. I only weigh a few more lbs than I do at my best, but I haven't REALLY worked out in AGES, and my clothes aren't fitting me the way I like.
This is NOT what I want, ESPECIALLY in a new relationship.
Also, for the last week I've been struggling with being sick, so that doesn't help, either.
Lately I have found myself feeling powerless to turn this momentum around.
Um, wait, WHAT??? WTF is THAT about?? I have done this before, I can do it again. Who is scared of starting over ? NOT ME!!
Oh, and WTF is this "starting OVER" language about? Hello, do I weigh what I weighed at the beginning of all this? Why do I jump to such dramatic self recrimination??
I do know that I need to take those first few steps to get started, that's the hardest step.
Strategy: This weekend: Clean out fridge! Stock up on healthy food! Cook big meal !
Sign up for the next batch of workout classes! I am not sure which one to do this time yet. There is a crossfit class apparently starting this semester at the rec! It is more expensive than the rest, and I wonder if they are legitimate crossfit instructors? Hmm...
In other, happier news, I am really, really happy in my new relationship. :) For quite a while I kept half expecting him to lose interest. What's that about? He hasn't, and he is as sweet as ever. He brought me soup and oranges and tea two days last week. D'awwww!!!
I really am so, so lucky.
I've never, ever been treated so nicely and had so much reciprocation from any relationships. He tells me all the time how special and beautiful I am.
Luckily, Lee is into fitness, too. He's particularly into cycling. I went on my first group ride with him last weekend. Unfortunately, on the way there i rear ended him and we both took a little tumble. CUE HORRIBLE GUILT. Oh well, after a couple minutes of being understandably annoyed (but still civil) he got over it and made me feel better. I was really shaken up, but i still did the ride and I think I did 15 miles. They were very slow because it was so packed, but still, I think I could start getting into this whole thing.
Tomorrow I'm intending to go to the community bike place and work to add gears onto my currently single speed road bike. Exciting ! :)
Okay, more updates soon! I vow to have some positive progress to report!