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Fighting Back

Thursday, January 24, 2013

I have been struggling with my weight since September of last year. I had almost been in onederland, but am now back up to almost 240 lbs. I had been running from fear and searching for comfort.

I had been so upset with myself- feeling flawed, weak and defective. I know what I need to do to get back my healthy lifestyle, but I have still be looking for food to cope.

Albert Einstein said:
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

Consequently, if I am going to get my healthy groove back I have to change things up a bit. I feel as though I have been running from my feelings and have been anxious with work so I have decided to post a blog or journal daily. I need to get back to working on my inside so I can change the package.

As I think about today:
It was a frigidly cold day outside and I didn't want to go to the gym and exercise. I wanted to blow off working out, but I didn't!!! I fought those feelings and climbed stairs and walked inside my condo complex for 35 mins.

Today I feel hopeful again. I am fighting back and not giving up on me! emoticon
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    1848 days ago
    I am proud of you Sarah. You are still fighting, you refuse to give up.
    1849 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    WooHoo Sarah you are getting back at it. I know you can do it. Here for you my friend.
    1850 days ago
    I have been feeling the same way, I know you can do this and you will. Keep a journal and write in it daily, if only for you to see. OR write it out here if you want, I won't critize but support you all the way. Change is hard and it take time to make change. Baby steps, one day at a time. Hugs. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1851 days ago
    emoticon fight for your life!! I know u will do this!! I get in the same struggles with eating I feel your pain!! We can di this!!
    1851 days ago
    I wonder what makes change so scary. Especially when we think we want to get to our goals. Continue to work. I will continue to pull for you. I hope that I can be of help and we will both get to Onederland this year.
    1851 days ago
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