Thursday, January 24, 2013
How many times do we look to other people for motivation and inspiration? Sparkpeople is full of these wonderful success stories and inspirational people. I'm so incredibly grateful for the friends I have made from this site and the support it provides. However, I know that if I am ever to be truly successful, I have to become inspiring to myself. I have to be the person I always wanted to be, the person I know I CAN be.
I joined Overeaters Anonymous in November after trying it out in August and abandoning it, thinking I had all the answers. I quickly realized I didn't and have been back in program since November. I quickly learned that I've been waiting for other people to fix me and tell me what I need to do. How ridiculous a concept that we turn to other people to tell us how to live OUR own lives. Now with being in program and learning yet again to look inward, I'm realizing that all the answers are right there. They seemed so out of reach, but only because I've been so blind for so long.
If it's one thing that people have in common that overeat, it is trying to control everything and becoming overwhelmed and stressed out. The stress lead to self soothing which leads to food addiction and eating disorders. Just surrender it already. Surrender it and say... whatever I am going to do today is going to make me a better person tomorrow.
I'm not perfect by any means. I've only lost 20 pounds so far. I don't exercise the way I should everyday. But I have made changes that are significant. I'm proud of me. I'm becoming my own role model. I encourage you to do the same.
This is me and my best friend on Christmas Eve of this year. She has since moved back to New York. I'm trying to get her to realize her worth as well. Be each others biggest cheerleaders and supporters. There are enough "haters" and cynics out there.