Frustrated with myself
Thursday, January 24, 2013
SO I got my period on monday and I had been doing sooo good with my food and exercising, I was exercising everyday except sunday and I wasnt eating any wheat/gluten and I was only eating naturally occuring sugars, like in fruits etc. Then BLAM TOM comes around and I ate bread, sugar, felt so exhausted and emotional I still dont even want to exercise....I hate that this happens. I guess all I can do is take it as a lesson and move forward and avoid it in the future.
Im not sure what the damage is weight wise, but I think mostly its water weight cause I was also not getting anywhere close to enough water those days...
Today Im getting back on track food/tracking wise. I have been on spark looking at the motivational pages all morning trying to convince myself to exercise.
I just want to lose the weight RIGHT NOW. Its so hard to not fall into old unhealthy habits while doing this. I have to constantly convince myself that only eating salads and bananas or atkins or something is not sustainable....UGH.
I just cant help but feel like Im under some sort of dead line. My son will be 5 in march and we want another baby, and literally the only thing keeping us from trying right now is my weight, Im nearly 230lbs and if I got pregnant now it would be devastating to me. My goal is to not start trying for a baby til Im 150lbs.
Ugh sorry for the vent-athon. Im just really disappointed with myself.