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How far have I come? Fat pictures tell a large tale.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

I have been feeling poorly physically and mentally these last two weeks. I have still been here, still trying to keep a spark going and having regrets that I am still so heavy and seem to make no progress.

I watched MOSTMOM1 's vlog about how she did last year, and she was saying the same type of things. Except she said something I seldom think of... "the pounds that I lost the year before keep trying to catch up with me and I fight them off". Thank you for saying that, you are the best.

It's a tough job to fight off the ones already lost, and lose the rest without plateaus, and set backs. So I had decided not to focus on trying to lose but just keep going and weather this storm. Until today,
I am organizing parts of the house, today it's...the hall closet. I found a loose picture....

This was in 1994, I was probably 230lbs I wouldn't really know because I totally avoided all scales. The shorts are a size 24. I would not have even been in the picture if I suspected that my DH was getting me in too. I thought he was just taking a picture of a 2 year old having a fit because I wouldn't pick her up while cooking at the stove. I had my 5th child earlier in the year and had not lost weight between the last 3. I maintained this weight for 6 years or so.

I am not so proud of this picture either, my vest is puffy and helps me look fatter, and I am wearing jeans, but here is today.

I am currently a size 16 ladies not W. I weigh 174. Since joining sparks I have lost 20, but I have regained 4. But if I was 230, then yes I have lost 56 lbs. Now I just need to keep going because to stop now is not where I want to be either. I really want to hit that goal of 110-120. I am only 5' tall, my bones are small, I want to be a healthy weight.

The plan is to get back on the workout plan tomorrow, I have done some exercise today and the rash on my legs is not as painful so back to P90! Track and stay within my calorie range, drink the water, and PLAY-have fun, go outside, walk at the mall in the morning, hula hoop, bosu ball, do things that make me a fun mom and a happier me.

And most of all.... I am going to reward myself with something that can help me. I am going to buy a fitbit one for ME. I bought one for my husband and he is loving it and doing great. I am jealous!
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    You are doing great! And finding that photo was a great eye opener so you remember where you came from, where you're going, and not do get disillusioned (easy to say; harder to put into action). I got a Fitbit for Christmas and am really enjoying it. It's the simplest kind, but I still like it. Let's just keep at this and never give up!
    1849 days ago
    you have definitely come a long way! and sometimes that's absolutely true, about those lost pounds ... a plateau can be a huge victory. i'm a whole 1/4 taller than you ... and i'm here to say it is possible to get that low and to maintain it ... though at the moment, maintenance is not going great. i'll get back on track, though, i know.
    1851 days ago
    You look healthier and happier. Even with the vest, you are much, much thinner; your hard work shows! emoticon
    1851 days ago
    sounds like a GREAT plan. emoticon
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  • COOKIE_AT_51
    Big changes ... emoticon you have the right attitude emoticon

    1852 days ago
    Looking GREAT! Congrats on your achievements.

    1852 days ago
    HUGE progress and you will LOVE the fit bit! I love mine so much! Onward!
    1852 days ago
    You look AWESOME! I can see a marked difference between those photos, and it's so cool - I love before-and-after photos. :) I'm glad you're getting in so much activity and living life! Sounds like you're doing great; keep up the good work!
    1852 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    Sometimes we need to look back and then be able to get going again. Losing 50+ pounds is great. However I know all about losing, gaining and losing again. You have a good plan figured out, wishing you all the best emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1852 days ago
    You look great! It is a slow process to take it off but well worth it!
    1852 days ago
    You are doing so well .. Your photos tell a wonderful story .
    This is a hard journey we are on and only the strong survive . I can relate as I too have lost a lot of weight but recently have put some back on .. I am starting to exercise better now .. and this week I lost 2lb ..
    For some like me it is a roller coaster ride .
    I can see how well you have done, and I know you can get furthur along the track ..
    Just keep pushing .. Hugs Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1852 days ago
    56! That's great emoticon Be proud You look great. Keep watching you calorie goals and pick up the fitness . Before you know it the scales will reward you. emoticon
    1852 days ago
  • HHB4181
    I just bought one too! I can't wait to start using it.

    You should be so proud of those 56 lbs! That's amazing! emoticon
    1852 days ago
    super-dee-duper!! emoticon emoticon
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    1852 days ago
    You've come a long way since 1994 !

    Keep doing what you've been doing. As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for all the positive things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up if you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.

    1852 days ago
    You look fabulous! Wow, 56 pounds down....not many can say that! It's okay to kind of sit back and analyze our weight loss journey because I think we need to do that in order to appreciate ourselves! I gained 75 pounds total with my two children and just couldn't get it off....well, I never tried I just lived with it...I thought it was a gift from having my children...lol!


    Your doing great!
    1852 days ago
    Such a great idea to look back when you aren't feeling well and to see how far you have come! Good for you, Annette! Keep going! And rewarding you with a fitbit sounds awesome!
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