That moment you know you are aware......priceless
Thursday, January 24, 2013
I have been very negative lately. If anyone has read my blow you already know that. My sister is finally home from the hospital, still don't know what is wrong with her, but she is doing a bit better.
Does this mean my stress level is down. Yes! Do I still have stress, real or imaginary? yes.
Is my food controlling me? not so much!
I am aware of what I am eating and what it costs. Do I want the bacon with breakfast? What if I want a snack tonight? No thank you.
I had a big breakfast, 2 eggs, 2 pieces of toast, 2 glass of skim milk, hey there is a pattern going on here, and a bunch of coffee. When I logged my food my delicious breakfast was over 500 calories!!! Oh no, don't freak out, you enjoyed your breakfast, you are full, it is know big deal. (like how I carry on conversations with myself?)
So I was cleaning out the fridge and we keep package of lunch meat, cheese, and such in the bottom drawer. We have plenty of all of it because my sister was doing atkins, no more. I started putting things into the drawer and I spied a cheese stick. Mmmmm, gotta have that. I held in my hand as I put the stuff away. THEN IT HIT ME! What am I doing. I had a good breakfast, I am not hungry, I would be wasting 80 calories! Omg!!! I put the cheese stick back. I stopped myself from binge eating. I feel so empowered!!! I know it was time, but baby steps will still get you to your destination.