Thursday, January 24, 2013
On the job front, I'm calling someone from HR tomorrow morning for a confidential discussion about this whole issue.
The reality is, I like my job. I really do. And right now I'm getting rides to and from work. So I'm thinking as long as I have a ride, I can just sit this out. It's not fair, but that's life sometimes.
But if I ever have to start putting the miles on my own vehicle again for this nonsense... That's why I want to have it on record that I said something right from the beginning.
Anyhow, on the fitness front, I'm feeling a bit of a burn today. I went to the gym yesterday again. It went so much better than I expected. I actually found guys willing to help me learn how to do dead lifts right. It was awesome. I didn't do them very well, but at least I got out there and tried. It'll only get better from here.
Back to my burn. I am feeling a little achy in the muscles today. Not so bad I need to sit in my chair all day. But enough to know I'm doing something different, and the muscles are changing/growing because of it. It's awesome.
On a worrysome note, I'm not sleeping. Two nights in a row now. I'm up tossing and turning until after midnight. I have to get up a 5:30am to get to work on time.
Funny thing is, I'm tired in the evening. I even fall asleep for a bit when I first get to bed. Then I'm wide awake.
I'm trying to not let that stress me out - I have enough stress in my life as it is right now. Last night I was thinking about it. It seemed this unfair job stuff was mostly what was rolling around in my head keeping me awake. So I guess that's telling me I can't just ignore it. It's really affecting me more than I even want to admit.
GRRRRRRR. Sometimes I HATE having such a strong sense of right and wrong. Regardless of who is being wronged. I tend to just dwel and want to fight for it.
Anyhow, I need to turn my mind. So that's what I'm working on today. Doing what I can with it, and then just leaving it up to the powers that be.
I am planning on going for my run today. Part of me is considering not doing it - there is a blizzard outside. And I'm not quite recovering from all this new fitness regime as fast as I should. Maybe I'm stressing my body too much?? Anyhow, I will be on the road for the following three days. So no time to exercise or run then. I figure that's my workout rest time. So I really need to do what I can now to get my fitness now before I need to take a break over the weekend.
Good thing too. There is some stress coming up at work, and it's taking a toll on me. Not only this mess above.