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Snow day . . . slept away my morning

Thursday, January 24, 2013

When I said exhausted, weary, and tired, I meant it. When they called off school, I went back to sleep and just woke up about half an hour ago. My sc ale is promising a happy Feb first reading. LOL I am still a bit weary but not so TIRED any more. The kids were fine yesterday - the weary and exhaustedness were from just feeling co ld all day for several days and the upset over this young girl - that I didn't even know - but that so affected me. I remember being about her age (maybe youn ger since I think I was only 10) and thinking about doing the same thing - SERIOUSLY thinking to the point I talked with the rescue squad about how to do it - remember in 1959 nobody thought kids got depressed or thought seriously about suicide - at least not sweet little girls with good parents and a happy home - BUT I DID and asked about different ways to find the most effective without HURTING too much. I even remember getting a serious answer - because of course I wouldn't DO such a thing - telling me to slit lengthwise so I could slit BOTH wrists since crosswise would cut tendons so I couldn't cut the second one.

This is getting morbid - so I will write more later.
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  • JILL313
    I'm so sorry that you had those suicidal thoughts when so very young. You never know what another person is really thinking unless they share those dark thoughts with another and even then most people don't know how to handle it. I'm so glad you got over it and are enjoying a very busy and hectic life. Continue to think Positive as I know it helps.

    Hugs & Love,

    1369 days ago
    It's important to take these things seriously. We need to improve the mental health of our young people. Since the high stakes testing has been implemented in the US, there's been an increase in violence. I think there's a connection.

    Glad you got some much needed rest. Hope you have a great day! emoticon
    1370 days ago
    Suicide has affected my family. Its impact diminishes little with the years.
    1371 days ago
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