Thursday, January 24, 2013
Back in 2009 I had completely had it with living my life in the body that I had become far too accustomed to. I had finished having babies in 1997, but not only had I not lost my "baby" fat, but my weight just kept creeping up with every passing year until I had reached an all time high of 226lbs and had found it perfectly acceptable. Then, one day near Christmas 2009, I decided that I had been fooling myself that I was happy the way I was.
I resolved to make a change in 2010 and that is exactly what I did. By the end of 2010 I had lost over 70 pounds and finally reached the high weight of my healthy BMI range. I hit my goal! I was elated, I was thrilled, I was empowered and felt like I could do anything! Then, it hit me. I wasn't done. Not by a long shot. I remember in 2011 and early 2012, I had been struggling to keep the weight off and was not doing as well as I'd hoped in maintenance. I also realized that my goal weight was about 10 pounds too generous and I really wanted to keep losing, but it just would't come, no matter what I did and I even re-gained about 17 of what I had lost because I had become so discouraged.
I'm happy to say that I'm here in 2013 at my original goal weight and maintaining well after some much needed tweeks to my relationship with food and constant adjustments to my fitness routines as well. Maintenance is hard. There is no doubt. And, TBH, the motivation seems to come and go and is so different from when you have the goals and timelines during the weight loss process. Although, I'm still working to find a more comfortable weight, I am essentailly overall very happy with the progress that I've made.
There are times when I wonder why I have to keep working so hard on it all, but then I get a nice compliment or can rock a dress or outfit that I couldn't have even considered before the healthy changes to my mind and body. Recently a co-worker of DH's recently commented to him that "Vicki is so hot, what is she doing with you?" LOL I wore a snug RED dress to my office Christmas party and felt like a million bucks, but I'm healthy now and I want to keep it that way. It is more than just trying to maintain a certain dress size or "look", but feeling fit, and strong and generally healthy and energetic is what keeps me going everyday.
What keeps you going?