Still finding motivation/inspirati
on in unconventional places!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Or perhaps it's really not as deep
As I've been led to think
Am I trying much too hard?
Of course! I've been too close to see
The answer's right in front of me
Right in front of me

It's simple really, very clear
Like music drifting in the air
Invisible, but everywhere
Just because I cannot see it
Doesn't mean I can't believe it

"Jack's Obsession" by Danny Elfman

I finally buckled down and made myself walk a mile this morning. This song came up on my playlist shortly after I started. So here I am on a cool but not frigid morning with the sky turning a beautiful blue! My feet may have been traveling 3 mph but my mind was soaring at a million!

Just then I was struck by these lyrics and my thoughts took a solid direction. I am not my weight. I am not my clothing size. I am not my financial status. These things fluctuate all the time. (Although recently all 3 have been headed generally downward... emoticon )

So what AM I? Creative, craftsperson, mom, daughter, friend. These things are constant. These things matter. If it wasn't for a need for shelter, electricity, hot water, food, clothes, I wouldn't even care about the financial status thing (very much).

In this brief moment of clarity, I realized I really have been putting my energy into having a lack of instead of into having a surplus. I am now motivated to work on changing my thinking from "what if the power is cut off" to "It's okay. I have enough". Fear-based thinking really puts energy into what you fear and draws it to you like a magnet. My goal now is to let go of my fear of lack and put that energy into drawing the surplus that I deserve to me.

Rather than "I can do this", this time I prefer "It is done."


As I was finishing this up, the doctor's office called about my son's blood work from his physical on Monday. Apparently he needs to eat more vegetables! emoticon I told her that I'd have him call back after school so she can tell him because he won't listen to me about that one!
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I've found that if you use worry to tell you where to plan ahead, then you have an idea of what to do IF it happens. So 'what if my car breaks down?' can be answered by knowing what other transportation options you can find. 'What if I can't pay the gas bill this month?' is answered by figuring out where to borrow money from (like family, not a loan shark), knowing what the rules are for when they can turn it off, finding what aid and support is available from the county/state, etc.

    It doesn't stop the worry, but it can slow it down for awhile because you know what you can do IF 'it' happens.
    1879 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.