Thursday, January 24, 2013
On tuesday night, my friend texted me to go to the movie. I was feeling fragile on my journey but I decided to go, knowing I would probably not be able to resist popcorn ( my TRIGGER) So we got there and I bought popcorn. I ate it and enjoy every piece. I came home and entered it in my food log. I realize that I didn't even eat all of my calories for the day. I didn't go on a food drunkage.
On wednesday, I continued like usual, eating what I felt like but entering the calories here. I know that I am not making always the right choice when it comes to the food ( way too much butter ) but I am keeping in control. Since monday, I still didn't reach 1800 calories a day but I also didn't go off track. Even tough I finally saw the pictures of me at the wedding of my brother in law. I took a deep breath and asked myself : what are you going to do? blow off everything and eat like a pig and gain more weight? or continue on this journey toward health and keep focus? Because those are the two choices really. Nothing else can happen. Getting fatter or taking control.
I am slowly accepting the fact that food is not bad. I can eat what I want. Always. I chose to count my calories and limit them for now but I am not going crazy. Baby steps like MGREER84 said. Baby steps. I will get there for sure this way. I even had strawberries dipped in white chocolate. That and popcorn would have usually meant eating out of control, over 3500 calories just because I was such a loser. I feel like I am learning new things.
I am changing my opinion on food. I feel guidy and nervous when I think about it.
I concentrate on the gym ( 30 minutes of bike + 10 minutes stretching with the foam roller). Next week, I will add weight lifting.
Sorry for my rambling on. I know it is so obvious to a lot of you beautiful woman on here. But I want to try and keep my blog up to date. It helps me concentrate on my commitment.