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Honoring my hunger

Thursday, January 24, 2013

When I was younger, I didn't have food a lot of the time. When I was in foster care, this was because of poverty, but when I was with my birth family, this was because my mother doesn't eat food. I was drinking Slim-Fast at age 9.

Just typing that sentence makes my stomach turn in memory of the artificial sweeteners. I still can't stand chocolate-raspberry flavored things.

I would skip breakfast, and often, for lunch, I would eat like the cheerleaders did. It wasn't cool to eat lunch, but the cheerleaders would use their lunch money to buy a can of hi-C and a bag of chips from the vending machine, so I did too.

By the time dinner rolled around, I was starving, because I hadn't given my body any real food yet.

After dinner, I was still hungry, so I snacked late into the evening. My sister and I drank caffiene free diet pepsi because that's all that was in the house, and "It might as well be water, right?"

I didn't understand what my body was missing, or how to meet its needs. I was just a kid!


But now I am thirty years old. A certified grown up.

And now, I understand what my body needs.

My body needs calories, but it also needs fat grams, protein, and carbs.

I know that when my body is hungry, that it is sending me a message that it needs something.

Now, I am learning to respond to that hunger by feeding my body vegetables and protein and nuts and whole grains. I am learning to drink water, and lots of it!

Every time I pay attention to my hunger and respond to it by giving my body something it actually needs: I am honoring my hunger.

I am saying to my body: it is safe to feel hunger now, because I will respond to that hunger in a healthful way.

It is like rebuilding a trust with myself, on a cellular level. I am telling my body: I am trustworthy. I am listening to your messages. I will take care of you.

I betrayed my body in the past. I did not respond appropriately to hunger because I didn't understand how.

With every meal, I am becoming more free.
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  • TIME2BLOOM4ME
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  • BILL60
    Sounds great.
    1781 days ago
  • 1STATEOFDENIAL
    Unfortunately a lot of parents didn't realize the unhealthy habits they were teaching their kids and how it would last for their entire lives. Good to see that you're making the necessary changes physically and mentally. Passing that information on to kids (your own, friends', family's, or even mentored kids) would do a great service to future generations.
    1781 days ago
  • PHEBESS
    Oh sweetie, your story made me so sad - just sending you lots of hugs, and yes, you are learning how to honor (and understand) your hunger.
    1782 days ago
  • MAHGRET
    Great job!
    1782 days ago
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