Thursday, January 24, 2013
Wow. January is almost over and Iím still right where I started! Amazing considering that I havenít done a whole lot to change things, nor have I done a whole lot to start moving again. And in case you missed it I signed up to run a half marathon in May. Iíd like to run that sucker in less than three hours! But if Iím not running, this is not going to happen!
January did not bring me the mojo I had hoped for. Ha! Well thatís entirely my fault, now isnít it?
So what is going on?
Well, Iíve turned into a lazy butt.
Ok that is not entirely true.
I just am not back to my normal schedule. The weekend commutes are no excuse. The cold on the other hand has made it hard to get in a workout when Iím in Wyoming. I did find a yoga studio there though so maybe that will help. As for the running, well, I know that it is 99% mental block. I just need to go out and do it!
Iím not going back. I refuse to go back. I will NEVER let myself get fat again.
And if I am going to stand by that statement, I need to step up and change my patterns now.
The fridge is stocked up with freggies. The freezer is stocked with home cooked healthy goodness. I just need to make the commitment and start saying two magic phrases: ďno thank youĒ and ďafter I work outĒ.
I got this. I just need to make it a priority in my life again Ė not just something I do during the week. Iím glad that boyfriend is on board. The challenge will be getting him to stay on board! He loses weight so quickly! And when he proudly came out of the bathroom the other day and announced that he weighed the same amount that I weigh now, I wanted to cry.
Iím 189. 12 pounds higher than my lowest weight this summer and man is it making my pants tight. A few months ago, 189 seemed like a dream. Now it seems like my worst nightmare! I feel overwhelmed at the moment Ė stressed and like I have way too much on my plate. Itís my own damn fault.
But I can do this. One pound at a time. One mile at a time. One good choice at a time.
I changed my background to Ganesha, the Hindu God of Success, to help me get through these obstacles (mostly of my own making) and to find success.
I know Iíve sounded like a broken record Ė but I have the tools, I have the knowledge now I just need to make it a priority to make my health number one again.
Because in case you missed it, Iím NOT GOING BACK.
Happy Thursday Sparkers!