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Getting My Poop in a Group

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Wow. January is almost over and I’m still right where I started! Amazing considering that I haven’t done a whole lot to change things, nor have I done a whole lot to start moving again. And in case you missed it I signed up to run a half marathon in May. I’d like to run that sucker in less than three hours! But if I’m not running, this is not going to happen!

January did not bring me the mojo I had hoped for. Ha! Well that’s entirely my fault, now isn’t it?

So what is going on?

Well, I’ve turned into a lazy butt.

Ok that is not entirely true.

I just am not back to my normal schedule. The weekend commutes are no excuse. The cold on the other hand has made it hard to get in a workout when I’m in Wyoming. I did find a yoga studio there though so maybe that will help. As for the running, well, I know that it is 99% mental block. I just need to go out and do it!

I’m not going back. I refuse to go back. I will NEVER let myself get fat again.

And if I am going to stand by that statement, I need to step up and change my patterns now.

The fridge is stocked up with freggies. The freezer is stocked with home cooked healthy goodness. I just need to make the commitment and start saying two magic phrases: “no thank you” and “after I work out”.

I got this. I just need to make it a priority in my life again – not just something I do during the week. I’m glad that boyfriend is on board. The challenge will be getting him to stay on board! He loses weight so quickly! And when he proudly came out of the bathroom the other day and announced that he weighed the same amount that I weigh now, I wanted to cry.

I’m 189. 12 pounds higher than my lowest weight this summer and man is it making my pants tight. A few months ago, 189 seemed like a dream. Now it seems like my worst nightmare! I feel overwhelmed at the moment – stressed and like I have way too much on my plate. It’s my own damn fault.

But I can do this. One pound at a time. One mile at a time. One good choice at a time.

I changed my background to Ganesha, the Hindu God of Success, to help me get through these obstacles (mostly of my own making) and to find success.

I know I’ve sounded like a broken record – but I have the tools, I have the knowledge now I just need to make it a priority to make my health number one again.

Because in case you missed it, I’m NOT GOING BACK.

Happy Thursday Sparkers!
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    emoticon You got this! Just remember that while it's true January is almost over it's still NOT over -- four more days to finish the month strong and set yourself up for an even stronger February :D

    Wishing you the best emoticon
    1821 days ago
    Yep. You know what to do! You're catching yourself before it gets to far. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Keep moving forward. You've got this!

    A half marathon...I bow down to you, my friend. Get out there and GO!

    (I've been slacking on the running this week...-14 is TOO D*MN COLD!)

    1824 days ago
    At least you're aware and trying before you gain it all back plus more like I have. I have a long way to go, but I'm working on it too. We can do this! emoticon
    1825 days ago
    I'm right there with you. But, the year is still young, so I'm not feeling too discouraged. It's just another minor setback...not the end of the road. As long as you're still fighting (even if it's only in your head right now), you will make it.
    1825 days ago
  • MIRANDA1115
    You got this girl! Take it one day at a time. emoticon
    1825 days ago
  • MALA77
    Oh and btw.... love the title "poop in a group" LOL That's what caught my eye. Is that just a polite way of saying you gotta get your "sh!t together?" LOL Hang in there lady!!! :o)
    1825 days ago
  • MALA77
    I've SO been where you are a number of times, probably more times than I can count on BOTH hands!!! But, like you, I have the knowledge and the tools. Once you get back on track you'll be ok. You just gotta get there and sometimes you have to wait until you're mentally there. That's how it is with me. No matter how many times I say I need to do this, until my mind is in it, my body won't be in it. But you got this!!! We ALL GOT THIS!!!!!

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    1825 days ago
    One day at a got this!!

    Here's a little Wyoming funny for you... Do you know why the wind blows so much in Wyoming? Because South Dakota sucks!! :) Wow, that was a blast from the past.

    Okay, seriously. I just installed the C25K app on my phone and love it. There's a C210K app too, maybe that would help you make your half marathon goal.

    Good Luck!!
    1825 days ago
    You got this girl. You are amazingly beautiful and just from the` words here, I can tell you have drive.189 is your end point. That is far that you will allow yourself to go in the other direction. Do not hit 190. At the same time, don't think about 177 right now. Your goal is 187. THen 185. Take it two pounds at a time. But in order to do that, you HAVE to get off your bum. Even if you make it to the gym or outside and can only muster 30 min, start there and continue to increase. You don't want to be the person you were two years ago. Or do you????
    1825 days ago
    You CAN totally do this. Keep pushing, keep fighting, and be the strong woman that you are. Now go kick some butt!
    1825 days ago
    Good for you! We have all been there many times. Now that you put it out there for all if us to read, you WILL do this!

    If its too overwhelming, start small, 10 minute workouts a few times a day till you get back into it!

    Keep moving forward!
    1825 days ago
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