Thursday, January 24, 2013
I've been struggling with anxiety the last few days. Why? Well, I dunno.
Do you need a reason?
Sigh. I've never needed a reason to feel anxiety or depression. They just come along uninvited.
The impact on my food/exercise program? Usually, I will overeat. Eat out of anxiety, not hunger. Wanting somethng to soothe me, and my drug of choice for soothing myself is SUGAR.
In hindsight, I can look back at Tuesday's nosedive into the candy jar at work and think "ooooooh. Oh. That's what that was about!" Because again in hindsight, I can see I was struggling with anxiety.
Yesterday I had a rare midweek day off. I still felt anxious, in fact, I felt pretty darn anxious. But I managed to refrain from overeating, or binging on sugar. I worked out and I focused on a project. I also worked on filling up my sleep deficit with a nice nap and some quiet time reading a book.
Yes, I feel it on the fringes of my awareness today, that anxiety. But I know what the monster in the corner is this time, and I know it's just feelings....and feelings don't need to be fed with food.