Thursday, January 24, 2013
It's been bitter cold here in Detroit. I am cold by nature. I have definitely felt like my body wants to go into hibernation with the colder weather. There's something to the fact that most mammals will do that. I've been reading others' blogs and have noticed that most are complaining about it being unusually cold. I can't wait for the warmer weather. I need to jump start my motivation and am not sure how to do it. I've also been thinking more and more about moving back down south, but know that it wouldn't be very feasible right now. But it is something I am going to keep in the back of my mind.
I've been cutting down on my medicines and hoping to be completely off them soon. But I noticed that I've been overly aware of my body and moods because of it. I notice more often when my anxiety levels rise and have definitely seen that happen a couple times in the last few days. Is it because I am dependent on the medicines to keep my anxiety levels down, do I really need the medicines to keep them down, or is it like my mother commented on the other day? She mentioned that as she gets older, she finds that it's been easier for her to be anxious when things don't go smoothly. Am I just getting older and wanting things to go smoother and am a little less flexible in my dealings with the world? I'm wishing I could find a doctor that takes the time to listen to me. Or do I need to be a little more forceful in getting my point across? I thought I was getting pretty good at stating how I feel, but maybe I need improvement still.
I caught up on my laundry yesterday. I swear I did. But, yet, it happened again. I shut the lights off when I went to bed. I woke up to another load of clothes. This proves my theory that dirty laundry reproduces when the lights go out.