Thursday, January 24, 2013
The last few days have been very stressful and came to a head yesterday. And today will probably be full of the same. But I am proud of how I have dealt with it over all. I didn't head for the pop, chips or junk - didn't even cross my mind nor crave for it, instead I came to Spark and read some motivation blogs, an article or two, till I calmed down. Then with a clearer head I then started to look at/process and tackle some of that stress. I did grab food & drink - baby carrots and refilled my bottle of water. What I'm not happy with is I know I didn't eat enough yesterday (though everything was good) and I didn't track it.
I did get in an hour of playing tennis with my son on the Wii and then another hour with both my son and daughter playing Dance 2 on the Wii (I lost points for not being able to do all the arm movements) It was a great way to de-stress, we had so much fun and laughter and it was a good reminder of what's important. These stresses are only temporary and once I'm back to my full work duties/hours most of these stresses will be gone.
I also realized a couple of things. I haven't felt quite right for the last few days. I haven't been eating my salads and I added Ezechiel bread in. My weight loss has slowed, I feel sluggish and I'm not sleeping well. So starting today I have reminders on the fridge about eating the salads and I've decided to leave out the bread and stick with the wild rice, quinoa and occasional brown rice that I've been doing.
I go back to work tonight and I am looking forward to seeing the residents. I have decided that yes I like my job, love my residents but I don't want to work day shifts, it's just to much. That may change once my elbow heals more/completely but for now. Though I have to close the studio (I just can't financially do it right now and do shows/markets which I have to do to draw people to the studio - catch 22), I will reorganize my workroom and work from home. Not what I want but it's for the best and when I was honest with myself, the studio is a big part of my stress.
I know I just have to take things one day at a time and eventually I will have walked through all this and life will be okay.