Thursday, January 24, 2013
I'm getting married on June 15th. It's my second marriage and his first. The first time around I wore a boring skirt suit with a little lace. This time I want a real dress. And a ceremony on the beach...barefoot. I have the venue... on the beach... but I am going NUTS trying to figure out how to deal with the dress.
First of all, I ordered one. For me the dress was so-so but my maid of honor and my daughter had a wow moment when I walked out of the dressing room - you know the one... but I didn't have that wow moment. Granted, the dress looks good on me. Even at this weight. So... I put a deposit down on it. And now... I am going to cancel it. I am holding out as long as I can to see how much I lose. I want the dress that makes ME cry when I see myself. That won't happen till I'm smaller. It just won't. I don't want to settle for the one that fits.
Of course there is the question of how long to wait before making a decision. I keep calculating... if I lose 3 lbs a week for so many weeks... blah blah blah. WAY too much pressure on myself but what do I do... I need to decide! Sigh...
The answer will come to me.. it always does.