Thursday, January 24, 2013
Well Nicole was at the doctor's today, Wednesday 23rd Jan 2013, so this is the news.
Nicole is very ill. No more surgeries, the cancer has gone to far. They are going to try Chemo, they are doing a resistance test to see if the pills or the IV chemo is better for her. She will start, which ever one is the right one for her, Feb 6th. It may buy her some time we hope a year may be 18 months. If she does nothing, the doctor's time line is 6 months.
As my husband and I take all this in, the reality of bringing up her boys begins to sink in. So as we loose her, we gain 3 boys! We have to get back to our house asap and get it ready for an 18, 14 and 9 year old. Perhaps her too, because she does not want to go into hospital, at all, ever!
I have to get my head around this quickly. It means such a life style change for us. My husband and I choose to have our kids when we were young. We have always planed a retirement of travel and spending time with each other. Even though my husband has not retired I travel with him most of the time when he travels for business. I will not be able to do this anymore.
I can't figure out if I am sad over my daughter, or for her kids, or for my loss over what was going to be my future. I guess it is all three! LOL