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Never in a Million

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Never in a million years or a million trillion calories will I ever go from this:

To looking like this:

And that is quite all right with me. :)
I'm thankful that I don't idolize those fashion-y girls, altered or not.
I just want to be the best, healthiest version of MY body, at my height and my body type. Plus, I have lots of muscles. What's not to love?

A not un-cute guy (but not my type) tried to follow me the few blocks I was walking back to work at lunch, interjecting a couple of friendly but non-threatening small talk,and was nearly relieved when he thought we were going different directions, he seemed so nervous. It made smiling irresistible for the remaining blocks. I get more attention from men AND women, people of all ages and sizes, now that I'm smaller. But more importantly, because I'm friendlier and not as guarded.

My co-workers accuse me of lying when I say I'm shy... I've changed *that* much. I'm sure the San Diego SparkPeople I've met wouldn't describe me as shy - I am in my element, feeling EVEN MORE secure, and able to let my true feelings, all the explosions of excitement and joy show.

So in my communication, and in my thoughts, I am becoming more like myself, not someone else. I think that is a good goal.
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    I love it! You are becoming a better version of YOU!!

    So proud of you, the picture of you (above) radiants pride, joy and fun, who wouldn't love that!

    Keep on Sparking~

    1846 days ago
  • RUDITUDI2000
    Looking great! Love your attitude on this, totally agree.. emoticon
    1852 days ago
    LOVE that picture of you Jocelyn. Your beauty shows through, outside and inner beauty. I don't see you as shy either. I think the word I would use to describe your friendly self is that you glow, people radiate towards that. Curvy and healthy is much better than that ultra skinny type, in my opinion.

    Miss you :)
    1853 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/29/2013 11:07:23 PM
    :) I've never met you in person, but I'd never describe you as shy either - I'd say you are definitely in your elelment in sparkland, and good for you for projecting that more in your daily life :)

    that girl looks awfully angry. I saw this great piece on cnn featuring a model encouraging girls not to idiolize her. she posted pictures of her in her daily life juxtaposed with pictures of her at a photo shoot the same day. Even she didn't look like herself, after hours and hours of makeup its almost like they aren't even people if that makes any sense, these are caricatures of what advertising agencies and editors think people want to see...but that is neither here nor there - good for you for having such a clear head and an open spirit!
    1854 days ago
  • JEREMY723
    Is that second photo from an ad on Sparkpeople? To me that's just horrible if it was. Aside from that, the photo is just horrible as well--someone feed her something, anything and quick!
    1854 days ago
    I used to be so guarded and quiet when I weighed more. Now I am so much more confident and overly friendly lol Funny how things change huh. You are awesome, keep up the good work!
    1855 days ago
    That's an awesome attitude to have!!! emoticon
    1857 days ago
    emoticon HMM, Confidence, Muscles, and Happy/Healthy (you)
    Or - Stick Thin, Unnaturally Posed, maybe Unhealthy, and {apparently} Unhappy (the Model)
    emoticon I know which one I would want to be!!

    You look ABSOLUTELY Magnificent!! emoticon
    1857 days ago
    The model looks so sad and weird and sick... You absolutely look better than her!
    I'm sorry to say that for the girl, but she needs help and along with her all the people who try to convince us that women should look like that.

    1858 days ago
  • NEWSGIRL2177
    Notice how you look HAPPY, and she looks miserable and really oddly shaped? I know which one I'd rather look like!
    1858 days ago
    I think you're beautiful as you are, and obviously so do others! I don't think 99.99% of the population is even MEANT to look like that uber-skinny model. Like you, I wouldn't want to look like her. And you're right, I don't find you shy at all... I can see, though, that you used to be. emoticon Probably because I used to be, also!
    1858 days ago
  • KITT52
    you look healthy and happy and who could ask for more....

    Have a healthy day
    1858 days ago
    Wear your smile with pride. The real you is beautiful. Your attitude is great. Enjoy those second looks and know that they see YOU.
    1858 days ago
    My sister tells me I have come out of a shell I have lived in for so long.
    Sounds like you have done the same.

    I smiled when you said you have muscles...I agree...I have muscles too.

    Sounds to me like you have met goal. The goal of finding you under all you had hidden behind for so long. I am so proud of all you have accomplished.

    I'm sure your getting second looks all the time...walk with pride and keep smiling girl! Your an amazing person.
    1858 days ago
    You look really beautiful in the picture. Even better than that, you have a look of confidence. It's no wonder people are drawn to you.
    Have a great day!

    1858 days ago
    You look Great. Look at your smile and your wearing a belt. Looks good on you.

    The real you is beautiful inside and out for sure. Love your blog.

    emoticon Well written.
    1858 days ago
    Keep up the good attitude!!
    1858 days ago
    Yes, that "friendly" thing works both ways and sending out those friendly, welcoming vibes can be SO contagious for both, others you meet and back atcha again from them! :-)

    1858 days ago
    Here's to breaking out of your shell!
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    1858 days ago
    Eek, the unhealthy thin people in magazines!

    They aren't real.

    YOU ARE.
    1858 days ago
    Good for you!!!
    1858 days ago
  • MIRAGE727
    You have made outstanding progress.
    Here's an option to consider & continue forward. . When I came to SP, I was around 220 (My high was 258!). My BMI was around 30 (highest=35). I focused on lowering my BMI. I tracked my nutrition, training, and worked towards drinking 63 oz of water a day. I did it all. Slowly, my BMI stated to drop. I was shocked that I went under 200 (1st time in over 44 years) I continued until I hit 185. My BMI had hit 25. I had conditioned and educated myself, finally hit my FIRST goal weight of 170. Since, I have settled at a BMI of 22.1 and 163. I can't imagine anyone wanted to be depressingly wanting to be unhealthily thin. I know we should all want a healthy BMI. Think about it. Stay strong, focused, and positive!
    1858 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/24/2013 7:07:01 AM
  • BRANDI1809
    You have a great outlook on life. Well done.
    1858 days ago
    I get the "shy" thing...I say the same about myself when I start getting to know people.... and they are always shocked by that!

    emoticon A butterfly emerging!!!
    1858 days ago
    Beautiful you! You have curves!! The other ones......well, we'll just leave it at that! emoticon
    1858 days ago
    Fabulous! You are such a rock star!
    1858 days ago
    Truth realized!
    1858 days ago
  • MIRFA71
    emoticon emoticon
    1858 days ago
    Great attitude...good for you!
    1858 days ago
    And that real you is beautiful :)
    1858 days ago
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