Wednesday, January 23, 2013
2012 was the year of hell for me.
My husband asked for a divorce in March, and after months of tension and tenderness we finally separated in December. I moved into a small apartment with the kids, he moved in with his ho-bag of a girlfriend (who he kept telling me was just a friend through everything until , surprise, he's moving in with her)
He still has the kids a few nights a week, but I am the main parent.
Over the last 9 months I didn't give a crap about working out and eating healthy. Fastfood and ice cream were my friends. My weight crept up to 261 lbs, an all time high.
I signed up for the local Dirty Girl Mud run in October, hoping that would motivate me to do some training, but I came down with shingles a month before, and it took until the week of the race to feel like doing anything. But I did push through with my friends and finished the race.
It's been hard not having my husband around. He has been my best friend for 16 years, and we celebrated our 10th anniversary while we were going through all the drama of last year.
I would log into Spark People on occasion to spin the wheel and to check up on spark friends, but I never had much motivation to post anything.
I've decided I'm done crying over my soon to be ex(divorce isn't filed yet)
I'm going to make 2013 my year.
I didn't start this as a New Years Resolution, because Resolutions always fail.
I started l on the 13th, ten days ago, by cutting out all wheat and grains, and I feel better. I fell better than better. My depression has done a 180 off of the diet change alone.
Now I'm working on going full Paleo, I am cutting down on dairy, and will cut it out, and with the opening of the new healthy foods store in town, I can see it being easier to go with (mostly) grass-fed meat and dairy and organic produce.
I even caught myself doing push-ups earlier today, for no reason other than because I wanted to.
This is my year to find out who I am as a single mother, and my journey to get ready to get back in the dating game.
I'm back baby!