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Taking stock of my well being

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Feeling pretty good about my workouts lately, I'm feeling stronger, and while I'm struggling with temptations and cravings more these days I'm still losing just more slowly. I'm enjoying how certain clothing is fitting and going out more often. of course there's more to come and I'm excited about that to.

Recently gone a few dates with a nice man who seems to like me a lot, and I had to tell him I couldn't make a commitment. I just don't know what I want out of my life yet and I don't want to feel trapped into something because I might just change my mind in a few months. So maybe dating isn't a great plan right now.

I think I really need to focus on self discovery right now, I never used to understand what people meant when they would say they needed to find themselves, but now I do, that's me right now. And it's lonely that's why i was reaching out in the first place but I think what I need now is friendship as opposed to romance, the problem is I'm a sucker for it.

Some major changes coming at work soon, positives and negatives attached to that. have to wait and see how it plays out and hope for the best (and maybe a raise). But all in all things are ok now just keep a positive attitude and and take care of myself better and those I love, sometimes its nice to pour out my thoughts and feeling where I can see them and take stock of how I am doing, gets confused in my head lol.

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  • KONRAD695
    Not to go back to my profession (bartender) but- I seen 1000's of people in and out of relationships. You are so far in front of the curve just knowing what you don't want, and what you want to learn. Keep going and don't questions yourself, you are doing for you. Until you get things figured out, enjoy yourself, go out, meet some new people. Conversation can be enriching. Or, just hit the museum, whatever feels right.

    Hang in there at work, role with the punches, I think you'll be just fine.

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    1881 days ago
    You are better than alright! Take your time to find yourself and get in touch with who you really are and who you really want to is a long journey, but totally worth it (and a journey I am on as well).
    1883 days ago
    I'm glad you're feeling stronger. I can understand the temptations,but you're a strong person and I am confident that you can overcome.
    1884 days ago
  • KENWANNE2013
    Well done for being so clear about where you are going. I agree with Losenit that it would be great if you and this nice man could be friends. Before meeting my partner I had quite a few male friends (and still do). I do think, aside from the great benefit one always gets from good friendships, that having friends of the opposite sex does give you a different perspective. Have a great week
    1884 days ago
    You are so wise - and lucky you have found somebody that is interested in you. Can he just become a good friend? Before I got married, I had a lot of male friends. They truly enrich your life and give you a whole new perspective when you do decide to start dating again.
    1885 days ago
  • KMM1123
    I think it's a great idea to find out how you want to live your life before getting involved with someone. How will he discover and love who you are if you don't yet know who you are? Does that make sense?

    Best of luck with your job!
    1885 days ago
  • HEYNOW22
    Good for you finding out what you really want

    I have been married twice... the first I was lost and found someone to be "in Charge" - when the marriage fell apart I spent two years to find out who I really was and what I wanted and needed from life...only after that was I able to find my Mr Wonderful. Take your time and enjoy yourself - Life is the journey not the destination. Enjoy the rest of your week my Sparkling Friend
    1885 days ago
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