Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Only about 5 pounds to go until I hit my goal weight of 140 pounds. I would like to get a few pounds below that once I hit it in order to give myself a little wiggle room so I can play around with maintenance.
I am getting worried, and I am getting scared. I don't think I will ever be able to go back to a "normal" diet. I will always have to eat around 1,000 calories for the rest of my life in order to maintain my weight. Prior to surgery, I gained weight eating 1200-1500 a day, so I am guessing those ranges will be too high for me.
I will always have to eat a lower carb diet, and limit grains, even whole ones since my body isn't really a huge fan. Currently, I eat 1-2 servings a day depending.
I keep having nightmares that I wake up at 260 pounds.
I did the smart thing and send an email to my RD, told her my fears and asked if I should set up an appointment.
I worked on my legs at the gym today. I am doing a 14 min mile now and am quite happy with that. My hip was bothering me again, so I only went for 14 mins instead of 20.
I think that is all now