Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I am really not even sure where to begin.
My life has been a mess the last few months, especially right before Christmas and things are just finally getting to a good place again. I know that all the hectic ness wasn't an excuse for giving up on my healthy lifestyle but I have finally faced the fact that it happened and I've got to learn from it and move on now.
Without going into too much detail so as not to bore you, before Christmas we found out we had to move because my boyfriend went back to school but we had a terrible time getting out of our lease and finding someone to take our apt. It finally happened...a few days before Christmas so we spent the holidays packing and trying to get moved. It was nuts.
For the first time in a long time, my boyfriend and I are both in a good place now...I think him more so than me which never happens. I am so unbelievably proud of what he is accomplishing at school and with his life. So now that he is happy I want to get myself in a good place.
I made a lists of goals that I had wanted to accomplish this year and its time to get moving. Fitness and healthy eating was supposed to be a priority and it definitely hasn't been. Between the move and work and some personal issues I just made it my last thought and now it's time to change that.
I spend almost every day feeling bloated, tired, cranky, with a headache and its starting to affect my relationships with others. Especially my boyfriend. He had spoken to me about a couple of bad habits I've been picking up and I know this isn't who I really am and I want to change it.
I had joined a nutrition program before Christmas and unfortunately didn't put the effort into it that I should have. I am not crazy about the person who puts it on, but I have gotten a lot of good information from it that I would like to put to good use while starting Spark again.
This time of year I find the exercise extremely hard. The temperatures where I live in Canada are frigid and it makes it difficult to do anything outside. But I've got to find some solutions. I know there are people living in places just as cold that find ways to work out so the cold cant be my excuse anymore.
My evening meals have also become a disaster. I had gotten so good at preparing things ahead of time before we moved and now we are lucky if I put anything together. My boyfriend is suffering from it too (not that I should be the only one to cook but that's just normally how it goes) so I have got to find some good meal ideas and start getting things made the night before or on the weekends for the following week.
I am ready to start feeling good again. Finally things are good for us and I've got to make myself good for this all to continue.