Wednesday, January 23, 2013
So today I checked out another calorie counting website as I had heard that they show you the calorie deficit and all, like how much I eat vs. how much I exercise (still donít quite understand and would like to know how much I actually need to burn during the day without going over board and not losing weight because I am not eating enough to compensateÖitís all so confusing!) Anyways this other site seemed to tell me that if I eat 1360 calories a day mixed with the sedentary work day (desk job) I have that I should lose 2bls a week.. I kept playing with my exercise part of it and that didnít change anything even if I do cardio for an hour or just 40 minutes or none at all it seems that it said the same thingÖ Does this seem right??? I enjoy spark way more as I love the community it isnít just a state of the art web page but itís an actual colorful diverse community or family rather and it is amazing to be a part of. Back to my point it seems this other site is strictly going off of calories restriction not compensating for how much calorie burning I am doing.. Iím still rather confused on this one.
In other news I am struggling with family right now, see both my parents are diabetics (well one is pre with no meds and the other is on a medication not insulin) I guess they see it as not that bad.. The problem being is this upsets me because they arenít taking care of themselves my mom was talking about making all these healthy changes albeit small changes but thatís awesome little change is better than no change. She was just talking about getting into gear this last week and I come over to their house last night and my dad is making homemade smothered in cheese backed macaroniÖ. SeriouslyÖare you kidding meÖ now I am not one to force my habits or beliefs on others but in the case I was furious because I mom is always sick (like very sick) and always depressed, she doesnít want her teenage daughter to be put on anti-depressants and wants her to change her lifestyle but seems to refuse to set an example this is so overly frustrating to me. I donít know what I should do if anythingÖ see I donít blame them for my adult choices as I have chosen up until recently to be unhealthy but as a kid it was their fault we ate out all the time I was allowed to eat my feeling or bored eat and my mom never helped to make sure I got the right healthy stuff or exercise. Again I donít blame them for my current challenges but seriously why canít they just care and change things like they talk aboutÖ I donít expect them to do what I am doing or help me with it but I do want them to change things and be healthier.. I feel like I should talk to them about this but I just donít know I donít want to guilt them into change but nothing else is getting through to them and my motherís therapist has ever asked her to just do at least 5 minutes a day of exercise, just five minutes thatís it.. I feel like that is not a huge request for having a longer and better life. I am being unreasonable?