Wednesday, January 23, 2013
That's what I've been telling myself all day at work - it's been so busy that I've hardly had time to think about what I'm doing. I definitely haven't had time to think about how I feel about what I'm doing. If I did have time, I would probably feel stressed...but I don't have the time to feel stressed. There's just the next orientation - the next report - the next email - the next recruitment packet - the next timesheet.
I am looking forward to yoga tonight. (Gosh darn it - I am going to make it to yoga tonight!)
My ZEN for yesterday night was sitting in bed listening to one of my favorite harp CDs while learning to cast on socks. (Double-sided needles are a contraption created for the torment of the damned. Who knew it would take me an HOUR to cast on 48 stitches on 4 needles? 12 stitches per needle -with all the loops facing inward.) I finally conquered after listening through my CD an entire time and then (once I restarted the CD) I happily knitted an inch of my ribbed 'leg.' It almost looks like the start of a very lumpy sock! Who knows if I'll ever be able to do it again - but I am determined to finish at least one sock in my lifetime. My dignity as a knitter is at stake.
*EDIT* I just realized I described an intensely frustrating task as my "Zen" moment - what the hell is wrong with me, right? But it's the thrill of 'leveling up' one's skill. There is nothing like a good mental and manual puzzle to occupy your time. Learning something new - however challenging- is also intensely satisfying. Besides, there is nothing so relaxing as being curled up in bed (next to the dog) listening to harp music with a good project.
So. Socks and Yoga. That's what has been keeping me going tonight. That and the fact that tonight is the one night of the week when Ben and I will have the evening together. We've been watching some Studio Ghibli cartoons and I am looking forward to finishing Laputa, Castle in the Sky.
So. Breathe, people!