Wednesday, January 23, 2013
This week, my friend won't be able to go to our Thursday workout at noon because she'll be out of town. I'm really disappointed. I went to the gym by myself on Monday (it was a work holiday) and had a great workout. Really, in many ways it's easier to work out alone. But I'm really having trouble feeling motivated to go tomorrow by myself. Somehow, all of the trouble of leaving in the middle of the workday to go to the gym doesn't seem like as much of an effort when you've made plans to go with someone else. It really is a lot of trouble to have to rush around, work out, and get cleaned up again to go back to work, but when you're doing it with someone else it seems more worth the effort. It doesn't hardly seem worth all the trouble when it's just me. The accountability factor is apparently huge for me. The voice in my head is really taunting me..."Why go to all the trouble -- you won't be letting one down but yourself if you don't go." I don't know why I have this bad attitude. Logically, I know this line of thought doesn't make any sense. I'm worth the extra effort all by myself. I know that if I don't work out over the noon hour I won't work out at all that day, and that's not good. I'm really going to have to work hard starting first thing in the morning to motivate and psych myself up to stick with my plan for a Thursday noon workout. I know I need it, that I'm worth the trouble, and that I'll feel better for the rest of the day if I go. So why does it feel like such an effort? Maybe if I can force myself to do it just this once, the next time won't seem so hard. I need to learn to be more accountable to myself and not just to others.