So, I fell off the face of the earth it seemed. I stopped coming online, I stopped weighing in, I stopped caring what I was eating. I stopped trying. There's really not much else I can say, that you haven't all heard before.
But that isn't the point is it? Everyone's been there, the point now is to realize your mistake pick up the pieces and keep moving on. You're either in it or your not. Not much else to it. I have a new motivation now (something I've always lacked) and I'm pretty sure it's the best one ever.
Babies. I know, what you're thinking: "Babies, Shay? Seriously? You want to lose weight for babies?" But listen first. My hubby Matt has agreed for us to try for children, when I am 180 lbs. Still not a healthy weight for my BMI but it's still 50 lbs away. Now I've been having raging baby fever for about a year now (maybe a bit more), and I would always joke with my husband randomly and say things like:
"So how do you think of the name Logan for a boy?" (Which he is not a fan of.
"Sooooo how about Babies?"
"You know this family trip would be hard with a baby.... BUT TOTALLY WOULD BE WORTH IT"
"AWWWW LOOK AT THE BABY!"
Okay, so my hints aren't so subtle. Any who, I've been seriously having that "I want babies babies baaaabies" fever for a while now. Well the deal is, (and yes my husband and I work in deals, it's a marriage okay?) if I can get to the healthier weight of 180, we can start trying for babies.
!!!!!! So this was like the hugest biggest monstrousitist ( new word
) kick in the pants I've ever needed. To be honest I'd love to go down to 150, but the idea of 180 seems so obtainable, so realistic for me where I am now. So yea, babies, guys, babies.
I Know the weight loss won't be instant, and I'll forget my true motivation, but I've figured out quite a few things from last time:
pounds lost and pounds left to go jars are de-motivational for me. It doesn't feel like a job well done.
I'd rather eat good fats than substitutes, so I'd rather eat real eggs than egg whites and eat avocados instead of a snack bar.
I like to go running but if I'm doing it all the time, I will start to hate it. So other cardio other than running.
Weight training is a must. Period. Rather over do weight training than cardio.
Calories have to be counted. Period. Even if it's just a guide. If I go over so I can have avocados or natural peanut butter or a yogurt I will. This is a life style, not a race to lose 50 lbs. I want to lose the weight, but I don't want to gain it all back.
Not only is this for me, so I can find jeans to wear without shopping the plus size section, or so Matt can have a hot wife, but it is so I can carry our future children together safely and healthily.
SO yea. I also deleted over half of my teams because I believe I wasn't focusing enough on being a member in certain ones. So instead of spreading myself as far as I can go, I'm only in a few major ones, and 3 minor ones.
Well there's my first blog, and like I said, I'm back!