Wednesday, January 23, 2013
That was a little Tony McMillan reference there. I have been down a little for the past week or so. I was not feeling confident in my ability to maintain my weight loss journey and work two jobs. I came to realize that when I am working at Red Lobster, I am working hard and doing a lot of moving and lifting. If I eat the way I eat throughout the week on those days, then those shifts will actually HELP me towards my goal because they have been some of my highest caloric burn days. I just have to make sure I am not eating cookies and pie every shift. I have also been hungrier than usual. I don't know how to tame that beast other than trying to fill up on water and tea in between snacks and meals.
My sister has been overcome with a wild fit of motivation. I am so excited for her because she WANTS it now more than I want it for her. I wish this shift didn't come when I am struggling but yesterday I told her that I need her to now motivate ME and push ME. She did that last night. She came into the gym hype and ready to workout. I have never seen her that excited AND focused. I was proud of her. She said that seeing me in my wedding dress kicked her into gear. I am so looking forward to better weather so we can get outside and get moving. Until then, the gym workouts will do.
Know that Sie has found her mojo, she has friends that want to tag along with us now. I am fine with that, to an extent. I can't expect folks to be at the same fitness level as us but what I won't tolerate is someone telling us everything they REFUSE to do before the workout even starts. Her friend yesterday had such an attitude and a chip on her shoulder. I had to tell her, "You ain't trying to workout for real. You are playing right now." She got mad or whatever but I was just like, I am here for me and my sister, that is it. You do you. I will worry about us. So we did the elliptical for a half hour and then left her there while we did Zumba. Tonight is another Zumba class, treadmill and upper body work, approximately an hour and 45 minutes.
I went shopping this weekend and wasn't too excited about how some of the size 16's were fitting. The pants all fit perfectly. It was the tops. The flowy fabric ones. I was shopping at New York and Company and most of their XL tops did not fit! They were too tight on my forearms and shoulders. They covered my belly, but it was just so weird because I carry my weight in my tummy and hips and for the 16s to work there but not on my arms and shoulders made me feel like a linebacker. I did get some cute things though. This is what I wore today:
and with a smile and better lighting:
My tank top is a bit big so it was kind of distracting but the sweater and slacks are so cute. The slacks are slim-fit ankle pants in a diamond pattern. With the exception of them being low-rise (this should never happen), I absolutely love them. I am just feeling so much better today and I am not feeling like a fatty who is out to derail all of my progress. ANd I am thankful to have my sister cheering us on right now. Funny how the tables turn!