Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I'm having a rough week so far. I've been mourning the separation and doing a bit of self-introspection. I'm not sure some of it is healthy, though. I keep asking myself what I could have done differently to avoid the separation. I keep hearing songs from the point of view of the person leaving and having to switch to another station because I can't handle listening to it. I find myself crying at the most inopportune moments. I find myself wondering what my husband is doing during the day; if he is finally happy now that I'm not around.
I'm trying to stay positive, but I think that just isn't happening for me. I feel listless and I find it hard to motivate myself to get off the couch. I'm stressing myself out by thinking that I have to get up and do something but inertia is keeping me there.