Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I've been cheating the past few days.... *GASP* on my calorie tracker! I'll be doing okay all day, and then something comes over me at night... I just go into the kitchen and start rummaging through the cabinets, grabbing handfuls of walnuts and chocolate chips and raisins... and then my attention turns to the fridge... hmmm, slice of chocolate cake? why not!... a cold turkey meatball? Sounds good to me!
I've been like a gremlin lately (as in, "Don't feed them after dark!) and it's got to stop. This self-sabotage is so not cool. I'll never reach my goals as I've planned to if I continue this behavior. And needless to say, these past few late night binges have NOT made their way onto the calorie tracker, partly because I just didn't know how much I was consuming... but mostly (like 90%) out of shame and guilt. What I have to do right now is be COMPLETELY honest with my food tracker again. Starting today... no, right now.
Another strategy to avoid these late night binges is to get my homework done for this online class, and then continue to keep up with it. It's been hanging over my head and giving me anxiety, and I think could be causing some of these destructive (binging) behaviors to surface.
The other thing I'm thinking of doing is putting a sign on the fridge with my latest short-term weight goal, just to remind myself of "the bigger picture." I wanted to reach 120lbs by Feb. 1st, but it doesn't exactly feel like that's going to happen. I guess it depends on my next weigh-in this Sunday. Well, I'll put it on the fridge for now, and adjust accordingly after my weekly weigh-in. I do NOT want to set myself up for disappointment with unattainable goals... talk about causing stress and anxiety!
Happy Wednesday Sparkers, let's keep up the good work!