Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I have had a better week eating wise, but not emotionally. I did great this weekend until my Mom headed home and then I binged a little. Stopped myself before it got too out of control. Then I did very well Monday and Tuesday with food and got some activity in as well. But Monday evening and all day Tuesday I had A LOT of anxiety and flashbacks from the miscarriage. It was really rough. I cried nonstop Monday night and then again last night. BUT... I did NOT let it cause me to binge. I thought about going to Dairy Queen to get a Blizzard to help me "feel better." BUT I DIDN'T DO IT!
I dealt with my anxiety by reading the Bible, praying, breathing, etc. But I didn't deal with it using food. So happy about that! Today I got at up 6 am for the first time in forever and worked out in the morning. It helped my morning go so much smoother and my mood is so much better. Gotta remember this feeling when I want to lay in bed and sleep longer.
Am I where I need to be yet? Not by a long shot! But I am taking the steps I need to take to get there, and I can't ask more than that of myself.