So I got a rough start with Spark People. After I joined my weight shot up 5 pounds in the first few weeks. I did not quit. Instead I got real and cracked down on my food tracking and work outs. I realized I was slipping in a glass of wine or and handful of nuts and I was not being honest in my tracking. So I cracked down on myself, got real, and lost almost 6 pounds in two weeks.

Now a few days after my six pound loss I have the scale telling me three of the pounds are back. It made me wonder...was my 6 pound loss a fluke? . Did I imagine it? Will I ever lose weight? Maybe I am meant to be bigger now that I am older?

Well, I was feelin a bit down so I googled weight gain and work out. My workouts have been strong and consistent which is what made me think to google that. The first article that came up for me was one in Shape magazine. I read about how our bodies can fluctuate by ten pounds easily from water weight. That is why daily weighing can be so frustrating. Our bodies are complex machines and it takes longer than many of us want to actually drop the pounds. The article guided me to look at other measures of Success. So I thought about that. I have lost an inch in all my measurements since I started and I am getting stronger every week.

Would I like to see the scale go down? ABSOLUTELY! However I am trying to remember that the scale does not dictate my Sucess. It is just a guide to help me stay on track but I can not give it the power to discourage me from my mission. So today as I measure food and do some ballet I will cheer myself on and wait until my real weigh in day to visit the scale again. And I will keep going regardless of the number that stares back at me.