Today is day 26 of my current streak! (Previous streaks; 290 days and 13 days.)
There are only 55 days until the first day of Spring! I have a certain t shirt that I am hoping to fit into by then. Its hanging on the outside of my closet door, so I see it every day to remind me to keep working hard.
On February first, I'm going to have hubby take front and side pictures of me. I'm pretty nervous about that, because to be honest, I don't think there will be much difference since my last set of front and side photos were taken last August. I haven't weighed myself since September 3rd, but I just don't feel like I've lost much weight since then.
The reason I don't weigh myself is that I know my weakness, and that weakness is this; if I weigh myself and have a bad result, I know I will be tempted to comfort myself with food. If I weigh myself and have a good result, I'd be tempted to reward myself with food. This has always been the way I've reacted to the scale in the past, and although I'd like to think that I'm stronger now and would NOT turn to food...well, I just don't want to tempt fate! So for me, staying off the scale and just looking for NSV's (Non-Scale Victories) seems to work best.
I am working so hard to lose this weight. I focus every day on eating as healthy as I possibly can. I've almost completely eliminated processed foods from my daily diet. I eat between 1200 and 1500 calories a day. I workout, and I try to do different things. I still do my DDP Yoga every day, but recently I traded in my cardio kickboxing workout for Zumba instead. I do all the little things, like parking further away when I go shopping, and dancing while I do housework. But I just don't feel like I've lost much weight since September.
My body has firmed up in some areas, though. I have (slightly) visible calf muscles. My thighs, buns and waist are firmer. And I definitely have become stronger, more flexible and more energetic. I feel healthier than I have in years!
But I'm also feeling insecure. When I post my new front and side pictures on February first, will people be let down that I'm not thin yet? And when I weigh myself on March first, what will people think of me if I haven't lost much weight since my September weigh in?
Since I started my journey last March, I've shared it here in my blogs and I've gotten so much support and encouragement, and it has meant the world to me. So I know I don't HAVE to post pictures or weigh in results....but I want to. Good or bad, I want to be honest.
If I don't like the way I look in my upcoming February 1st pictures, or what the results of my March 1st weigh in will be, I will be disappointed. But I won't be disappointed in MYSELF, because I can honestly say that I have been doing my best. And with God's help, I will keep on trying, and trying, and trying. I know I will reach my goal eventually, as long as I never give up on myself.