Wednesday, January 23, 2013
My slow "a-ha" for today: This is going to take awhile. As much as I want to see immediate results, I truly realize that it's not going to happen quickly. My body is morphing into its most undesirable shape yet and there is no quick fix. So I have to resign myself to this: a long, consistent walk down to what I desire to be.
Ugh. I want to whine. I want someone else to fix this for me. I want that magic pill. A shot that would keep me motivated or give me energy so that I could accomplish all the things I feel I need to do to lose weight. But whining isn't helpful. Nor is giving in when I know the next moment I'm going to fight for it and I've only wasted precious time and calories.
And maybe I get consistency confused with perfection. Doing something consistently may also mean doing it perfectly and I somehow need to let go of that thinking and get my head around the things I will do consistently to help ease my way down the scale.
What will I consistently say "no" to for now?
What will I consistently do at this point?
What will I consistently say "yes" to for now?
It will be hard. My family doesn't like it when I go to bed at 9:00 p.m. so that I can get up at 5:00 a.m. But I think this is something I need to consistently do so that I am well rested and have energy for my waking hours. They will not like it when I say, "Move over, the Wii is mine tonight! Want to join me?"
This is a fight and a struggle. I know I'm not alone, but I am solely accountable for me and the choices I make. So here's to walking up to the long journey and taking one step at a time, consistently putting one foot in front of the other.