Wednesday, January 23, 2013
It's no secret that I lost my spark. Thank you everyone who left supportive comments on my last rant :) I am taking in a lot. So the last few days am trying a lot of what TEACHFIRST268 said. I'm getting real with myself.
When I started my journey, I do remember being inside the gym just wanting to go home. Looking around at all of the fit people and then looking down at my stomach feeling ashamed and embarrassed. I have those feelings now. I have been telling myself..... who cares! Who cares if my arms jiggle, who cares if these very same people saw me 60 lbs lighter. They will see me again, they will see me when my arms are not jiggling. The will see me when my belly isn't hanging over. They will see me nice and toned. I will be that girl... LOL
When I feel like I want to go home, I'm bored. I'm giving myself goals... Ok do this much of cardio/ strength and you can go.
I am making sure that I am lifting weights.
I am making sure I get dressed on a daily basis, even though I have no clothes. I still have makeup and can do my hair. I can still be pretty. This is helping my self esteem tremendously.
I am praying. I am praying before each workout, for God's strength to do it. To honor him with my body. I need my body to be in working condition if I want to serve him.
I am eating right even when I do not want to... :( I had to make a cake yesterday with my daughter for a cooking class!!! GRRRR I had none :)
I am loving my new george foreman grill. Fish on it is fantastic!!! YUM YUM!!!