Wednesday, January 23, 2013
(I apologive for the novel ahead of time)
I think the key to really having success in creating a healthier me is commitment. I have committed to a consistent workout program. I have committed to a healthy eating program. Basically, I have committed to a healthy lifestyle. After all, to be successful, we have to really commit to that lifestyle change or it just won't happen! I have lost 125.6 lbs. in 262 days (since May 5th) and I think the number one reason is commitment! I made a plan, and I have stuck to the plan.
I believe this because I have done this before, without said commitment. I did not join Spark on May 5, 2012, rather on August 10, 2009. Basically, I started this almost 2 1/2 years earlier. When I started back in 2009, I had success. I had a lot of success! So what went wrong? What brought me back to Spark? What is the difference this time? All are good questions that I am going to answer. I will answer these questions in hopes that if future Brad decides to go off the track, that maybe he can look back upon this and get right back on track. Also, maybe someone reading this may take a little something from it and use it to succeed in their journey. Maybe.
Most of you reading this, probably know a decent amount about my current story. But let us jump in our Delorean, hit 88 mph, generate our 1.21 gigawatts and travel back to 2009 for the rest of the story.
At the end of May, 2009, I weighed myself for the first time in years and was stunned by the number I saw on the scale. I mean, it was not good! Not that I should have been all that surprised from lack of exercising and eating crap upon crap upon crap all the time. So I decided I wanted to lose weight, but how? I really didn't know much of anything about nutrition or exercise plans. I mean, I worked out in high school and college playing baseball, but that was for baseball. I didn't like exercise. The only thing I really knew was that I needed to eat better. So, I ate better through the summer of 2009 and lost about 32 lbs between May 31st and August 10th. Not bad actually. I really just ate better (not great) and increased my activity some by walking more and playing more golf. I really didn't have any set plan to do it or to keep doing it. I just went along.
Then, on or about August 5th, a group of people from work went out to lunch and invited me along. We had lunch at Tumbleweed on the river (you Louisville people know the spot) and it was pretty good. I really don't remember what I had that day because that isn't the important part of the story. The important part is who was there. In particular, a young lady who we will call C.J. Of course this starts with a girl, doesn't it always? I had sort of known her before but we talked most of lunch. It was nice.
I spent that weekend, thinking I really want to ask her out but no way a girl like her is going to go for a guy like me. So I decided that I needed to kick up the intensity of this weight loss thing a notch. I had it stuck in my head, that I would lose the weight and if I lost enough, she would say yes to a date. That was my thinking!
So I found Spark and signed up on August 10th. My plan was to follow a strict diet plan, track it all, and increase my activity even more. I still knew nothing about actual nutrition. I was not going to do an actual workout plan. I really didn't have a plan, except I was going to eat about 1,500 calories a day...and I did! Sounds like a good plan but at 6'7" and a lot of weight to lose, that is not a good plan. I was basically just starving myself. I was hungry all the time but I just sucked it up and went on.
It worked. From August 10th through December 31st, I lost 67 lbs bring my total up to 99 lbs since May 31st. I had lost 99 lbs and I was really proud of that. So proud, that I actually decided I could now ask C.J out on a date. So, near the end of December, I did ask her out. I did it in the morning before work. She gave me a long answer that included phrases like, "I just got out of a thing", "I don't know what I want", "I'm not saying no", "I'll call you tonight".
Ok, so being an optimistic person, I hung on to the "I'll call you tonight". Well, she never did. I didn't see her for almost 3 weeks with Christmas Break and all but when I did, I asked her why she didn't call. She said that she was sick over break and busy and all that kind of stuff and pretty much left it there. No mention of what I had asked. No answer. I didn't push because that's not me. Till this day, I have never gotten an answer. Not going to lie, that hurt.
But, I was still determined to lose more weight. I had come so far, might as well keep going right? I was working 2 jobs, I started P90x, I started coaching high school baseball part time, I have 3 kids myself...so I basically burnt myself out. I quit tracking. I quit coaching baseball. I quit P90x. My main motivation (the girl) wasn't going to happen. I was done. I had lost 121 lbs. Problem is, I went right back into old habits.
Between March 2010 and May 2012, I gained back 78 of the 121 lbs I had lost.
Reading that sentence kind of makes me ill now. At least I didn't gain it all back I suppose. That means with the 43 I didn't gain back and the 125 I have lost this time, I am down 168 lbs. now from my highest known weight.
At the beginning of May of 2012, I decided that I have had enough of this. I was going to make changes in my life to be healthy. I was going to get healthy and have a better self image. I was going to get healthy so I can live and be a good example for my children. I was going to do this for me and them...nobody else. This time, I had plan. This time, it wasn't for a girl. I was going to do it right, and for the right reasons. I had a plan, I was going to execute said plan, and I would not stop the plan...ever! Not for anything. I did my research about nutrition and exercises. This time, I was going to be well informed. This was going to be a TOTAL lifestyle change. This was not going to be a quick fix plan. I was going to set a goal, meet that goal, and then maintain that goal! It was going to take a lot of TIME and a lot of EFFORT.
It was going to take commitment!
So take this away from my story if you take nothing else. Commit to your plan. Commit, commit, commit! Find what works for you and do it! Do it for you!
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Good Day Sparkville