Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Well, here I am, almost a year later and in the same place I started. Have I been consistent? No. Have I done my best? Not even close. Am I ready to begin again? I hope so.
The truth of it is, I have lost before. I mean the good kind of loosing, as in weight, and I have gained it back. It is so discouraging. I don't know if I am scared or what I am. I guess all I can do is keep struggling on and hoping one day it will click.
I did good for a while last year. Almost completed my C25K program. Then I hurt my ankle and it was all over. I get discouraged and distracted easily, I admit. But I also know that I am a creature of habit, which can be both good and bad. Bad in the sense that right now, I have bad habits, good in that I know once I get going on something, I can keep going as long as I am seeing results.
I don't know what the answer is. I wish I did. I wish I could just do what I know needs to be done.
Sorry to be a Debbie Downer today. I just had to get something in to start off the year. Some sort of explanation for my unmoving ticker.