Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I wonder what the other skinny minnie students think, when me, the chubby winded girl at the front of the class is kicking their asses with my power and perseverance? When my hooks would knock their pretty little heads off?
I wonder what my teacher is thinking as I am pounding it out for the life of me while the other girls have limp noodle arms? When I don't give up when I am obviously tired? Why I show up time after time, even though I suck?
I hope they know how hard I work to make myself be at the front of that class. And how hard it is for me to show up everyday. And how hard I work to be better. I am not winded because I am out of shape and fat (...wait... yes I am...) I am winded because I am out there KILLING it. Kicking my own ass. Trying to outdo myself. And them. And giving it my all.
I hope they know that. I hope they know that no matter what, I show up, three times a week and BRING it at the gym. I build power. I build endurance. And I build confidence. I am changing myself. And no matter how many looks I get, no matter how hard it is, and no matter how many of you skinny minnie noodle-armed girls there are watching me, I will still be there.I don't care how I look at the gym. I am not there to flirt. Or get a boyfriend. Or to people watch.
I see how you look at me huffing and puffing. To you I say, "why aren't you?" You can do better. You can be better. You can give your all too.
I hope they know that.
PS - great blog entry I came across today. "Dear Fat Girl at Hot Yoga"
Solidarity Sister Fat Girls Killing It At the Gym!!
Alright...solidarity with my skinny minnie sisters too!