Tuesday, January 22, 2013
That is it, I am done! I quit, I don't want it that bad! I don't need this, I can find better thing to do with my life!
That is what has been going thru my mind since Saturday when the calf muscle popped and then it felt like a knife was stabbing in my calf...... all I could think this BULL, I don't need this. So I started walking back to the car but I wasn't ready to believe that I was hurt again(on the leg that did not have any problems), no way I just can't have all this good luck, so I gimped the quarter mile back to the car and got on the track and did another half mile.
Conclusion, yep it happened again! I did my warm up, I have been stretching, I have been patient, I have not pushed any pace, I stretch after........Why another one???? I have been hurt off and more on since January 2009 and I knew why then, I never gave anything a chance to heal, I would feel a bit better then out I would go for a run then be hurt again, a vicious cycle.
In March of 2012 I stopped running and just biked until the end of July at which point I reset my plan. No more pushing, I was going to start over, so I started clean just like a new runner with the C25K program. I was patient I did a few weeks over because I felt I was not ready to move on but I eventually made to the 5K, no pain! I began to work to a 10K which was also good, no problems, no pain and no pushing. I skipped doing hills, skipped speed work but I did cheat one day and did fartleks (very easy ones) still no problems.
I backed off for about a month went slower, reduced miles just to be on the safe side. Then a few weeks ago I felt a slight tweak of the good calf .......hummmm so I took it easy, keeping runs at 3 miles or less, I could feel something but I did not notice it until later and later in my runs and not really pain, more of a knot. I got back up to 2.5 miles over a few weeks time and it was good, a little tight but got better as I ran.
So here comes Saturday's run .23 miles and that was all that was good, down hill after that, so I did what I said I would not do, ran another 3/4 mile......Stupid yep but I was really ticked off!
How could this happen again? I just dropped $90 to register for the Flying Pig half in May friday night, $130 on new shoes the previous weekend, already registered for the Rock and Roll half in August, and was planning to register for a 70.3 in September, again I am done, I don't need this anymore, 4 years was long enough!
Then I got up today and realized if I quit now I would have learned nothing from Sparkpeople these past 5 years. You will have setbacks but it is how you handle the the setbacks that will determine the success of your Spark journey and your journey in life. I gave up chewing tobacco and put on 30 lbs but that is ok, it is a temporary setback, because Sparkpeople has taught me how to be healthy and to lose weight. So the injury is just another setback, I will be back! My spark family will be there for me along this journey, you will pick me up when I am down. My wife and my kids are there supporting me every step of the way, so how could I not have success.
Why would I do this? Because I DO NEED THIS! (don't you). Soon I will be able to say Bobby's BACK!
See you all at the PIG AND if I can't run I will be a cheerleader for you all!