Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Ok, i've been attempting to be this size my entire life. I haven't gone full on shopping spree, but I can't walk around like a bum so I grab things here and there if I get a gift card or have a few extra dollars that week. I used to hate shopping, and now I absolutly love it. Just to see how things fit me now, and actually feeling sexy and attractive. So today I went through my clothes. I had clothes ranging from size 18-24. With my now size 12-14 size body I have no need for any of these clothes but I have this nagging voice in the back of my head saying what if you get fat again and need these. I don't want to think like this but can't help the negative thoughts. My brain tells me give them to goodwill and never look back. How do I do that though? I've been that person forever, how do I say goodbye to that person and hello to this person i've never been? I love the energy and experiences i've had in my short time as this person don't get me wrong but part of me will always be the fat girl. I wanna just be jenna, but who is that now?