Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I've been sick which turned into bronchitis about 2 to 3 weeks ago and i'm just finally starting to feel normal again. Along with dealing with all this I've had to wean myself off of Zoloft from having Post Partum Depression with my daughter who is now going to be 5 mths tommarow. I've been going through a lot of emotional stuff along with the fact I want to be healthy and loose weight. I know I couldn't be on the medicine forever so I just have to learn a better coping mechanism. For a couple days I've been feeling very emotional when I see people who I want to look like skinny fit and healthy,I just start to tear up or just feel sad it's really rather annoying because I know it's due to being off the medicine and weaning off. I want to work out and stuff but I'm waiting until im totally better from this sickness before I start. I've also had this dream of being really into zumba my gym does zumba and I have the zumba dvds but something always comes up when I want to do it like the sickness. My husband now thinks it's a joke about doing zumba like i'll never get around to it. He made a joke today like "oh you'll never do it" which hurt but it just made me feel like I'm going to prove him wrong. I try to be positive and always say I can do this I can do this I just have to it's hard. But a lot of things in life is hard.