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Now for the big challenge...


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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

This has been a tough 2 weeks for me. Without wanting to be redundant, I will simply say that I had the worst anxiety / depressive episode I have ever had. All of the triggers were present to bring on the mother of all panic attacks. It has taken a while but after some corrective action, I have finally gotten to a place where I am back to my old self.

After some therapy (ongoing) and some modifications in my lifestyle, I have seen some relief and a new sense of being on the right track. I have admitted to my issues and I am not ashamed to admit them here. This may very well be one of the last blockades from reaching my ultimate goal. I sense a new victory may be on the horizon for me. It may take a while for me to get it right but I will continue to march.

One of these days I will march seven times around the walls that hold me back, blow the trumpet and watch them in a moment of glory as they fall flat. That day I will sound the charge and show no mercy to those things that have kept me slogging along on the emotional treadmill.

Those episodes have been compounded by my rotating shift schedule . I waste alot of good training time recovering from the emotional eating and compromised mental state and by the time I get back to training readiness, its back to night shift again.

Now for the big challenge. I am going on nights tomorrow for another 7 days . I have things in place (no medication) and a plan of action to cope with it. If I am successful, this is going to be my golden ticket to success. This is really the last really big hurdle to my ultimate success. We will put this to the test over the next 7 days. Will it be perfect? Of course not, nothing ever is the first few times much like passing a dull knife over a sharpening steel. Keep at it and it will be perfected to a razors edge.

While I am never excited about getting another dose of the equivalent of jet lag, I am excited about focusing on this issue because eventually I will be able to successfully manage it rather than being constantly being knocked to the ground. Its hard to lose weight when I am forever recovering from emotional binge eating and all of the stress hormones.

I feel confident.

Training for my 70.3 doesn't start on the running path, cycling, or swimming laps. It starts with managing myself and my inner core. From there, the forces that drive my eating patterns are controlled. Once eating patterns are stabilized, the weight takes care of itself. For every pound lost, my pace gets faster and every stroke more efficient.

Yeah, I got this.

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TORTISE110 1/23/2013 5:56AM

    You are so smart to do the core work that will make for a happier life. You deserve that!

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KRITTYGIRL67 1/23/2013 5:54AM

    Good to work on perspective like that. But also nice to know that when we are weak, He is strong. Best wishes, my dear. Many of us here are acquainted with similar struggles and feel your spirit and strength.

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TRYINGHARD54 1/23/2013 5:49AM

    your strong. you can do this... good luck. my prayers are with you... hugssss

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KTACKEBE 1/23/2013 5:35AM

    From someone who works overnights its really tough, but emoticon !

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FELICIA1963 1/23/2013 5:18AM

  You can do it - thank you for sharing!

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LVHOPEJOY 1/23/2013 4:28AM

    You go! emoticon emoticon

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THEIS58 1/23/2013 4:03AM

    You are handling this so well!

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AMOMENTSNOTICE 1/23/2013 3:48AM

    It's great that you nipped it in the bud & got right back on track!
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FRANCES-AGAPE 1/23/2013 3:00AM

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GLAD you got back on track


One Day At A Time

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I could NOT work swing shifts
I need a sleep schedule
BUT
At least you HAVE a job
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Love your Joshua analog !


Have a Wonderful Wednesday !


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LOVE and BLESSINGS !


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NUOVAELLE 1/23/2013 2:37AM

    Panic attacks are no joke and I'm really glad you're past them and you're maintaining a positive attitude.
Wishing you strength and courage.
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_BABE_ 1/23/2013 2:01AM

    I know someone who has worked night shifts their entire life and I believe they are a real challenge for the mind and body. We take for granted being in the rhythm of a normal schedule and don't realize the toll the body takes changing over from days to nights and back again. I applaud your efforts and believe you will find the best strategy for you. emoticon

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ROXYZMOM 1/22/2013 9:46PM

    You got this! One step at a time!!

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JPONCIN 1/22/2013 9:23PM

    Nice job handling the week from hell last week! You're gonna have a great 2013. :)

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MANILUS 1/22/2013 9:23PM

    Yeah you've got this for certain! All the best!

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_JODI404 1/22/2013 9:17PM

    Best wishes for great progress during this round of night shift!

As always, I love your honesty and great attitude!

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MARATHONDAD 1/22/2013 8:32PM

    good luck buddy we are all behind u

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FROMNDTOGA 1/22/2013 7:37PM

    Remember where you were - you can do this! You really do inspire me.
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LINDAK25 1/22/2013 7:23PM

    Good for you! emoticon

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LINDAKAY228 1/22/2013 7:20PM

    I have faith that with your new tools you are going to be able to get through it well!

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/22/2013 7:19PM

    One day, one decision, and one plan at a time! You go, Robert! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DUXGRL1 1/22/2013 6:58PM

    So true, and I'm sure that you DO have this! emoticon

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KATIELYNN1122 1/22/2013 6:32PM

    You're definitely an inspiration to me and I know you can reach your goals :)))

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SLIMLEAF 1/22/2013 6:24PM

    Best wishes for the week ahead. Take it just one step at a time.


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COOKIE_AT_51 1/22/2013 5:49PM

    emoticon sending some emoticon as you head into night shift...don't forget we are here! emoticon

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PAULKNUTH 1/22/2013 5:46PM

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You da man!!!

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VIVALAKIMI 1/22/2013 5:45PM

    That's tough! You can do it!!!

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NELLIEH1 1/22/2013 5:41PM

    emoticon You can march just once tonight around that wall. Good planning and insight have gone into your readiness. May you be blessed with strength and good courage. emoticon

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WORLDSERIES11 1/22/2013 5:23PM

    emoticon Robert!!! You have lots of people supporting you and cheering you on!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REGILIEH 1/22/2013 4:56PM

    You DO have it! emoticon You WILL DO it!!! You are in my prayers! emoticon

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MARITIMER3 1/22/2013 4:56PM

    Good blog. You're gaining a lot of understanding about yourself and your triggers, and knowledge means you can change some things, accept others that you can't change, and go ahead with your plans. It's really unfortunate that night shift is so difficult for you, but I know some people just can't adjust to it. I doubt that I could.
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DIANER2014 1/22/2013 4:46PM

    emoticon emoticon You got this!

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CHRISTINASP 1/22/2013 4:40PM

    You're very brave.

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FRACKTHATNOISE 1/22/2013 4:39PM

    SO SAY WE ALL.

You got this. You plan to succeed. That's all there is to it.

We're all here and cheering for you.


70.3 here you come!


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NETTYBREAD 1/22/2013 4:33PM

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You do HAVE this... You have the tools and the self-confidence. YOU GO!!! I made my first video-blog after my first therapy session. That helped too.

You're right... training for a 70.3 doesn't start with just the running, biking, and swimming. There is much, much more to it. It does begin with a DESIRE then ACTION. Just like you are showing now.

I am right there with ya!!! Cheering you on. emoticon

YOU CAN... and YOU WILL do it!!! One step / one day at a time.

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THECRAZYMANGO 1/22/2013 4:26PM

    BIG BIG HUGS! Depression is a monster. Sounds like you are in a better mind frame! WooHoo! emoticon

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HFAYE81 1/22/2013 4:22PM

    You can do it!!! We're behind you, can't wait to hear how you do emoticon emoticon

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BLUEROSE73 1/22/2013 4:22PM

    You can do this. I know you can. Keep fighting for what you deserve.

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