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January 22...just because

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

it's been ages since I put a blog entry up here...

Yesterday was a terrible self-image day for me. I'd had quite enough of seeing images of tiny little hard-bodied women getting loved and recognized for the gorgeousness that everyone seems to see in them. I let myself wallow in it for a while, then realized what I really wanted to do was get some new pictures taken, so that I could see myself in a more positive light, and present myself in that light as well. Hubs had been talking about doing a sexy little private shoot with me for a while now, but we just hadn't been able to make it happen, for one reason or another. So I sent him a text and told him it was time, and we needed to do it. I called his gf, had her come join us for dinner, and help with pics after. Because sometimes you just need a female opinion on matters like this.

I made a point of making something relatively healthy, including a glass of white wine with dinner, and got prettied up. The new pic up here is from the rest of the evening. Some I liked quite a lot, others I had to gloss over because they only would have reinforced that icky self-esteem problem. Funny how it's hit or miss like that...

Besides that, I've been trying to keep up with both the January Jumpstart here, and Yoga Journal's Willpower 28-day Challenge. Together they are a good balance of activity and insight. I'm quite enjoying it. There's still a lack of motivation around cooking and eating healthy, but I've had an interesting and enlightening realization about myself lately...

I am no longer in the dark about my emotional eating tendencies. (typed 'habits' instead, but realized that's no longer a true word.) There's a quiet little voice that I hear when I head into the kitchen in search of food that tells me, 'you're not really hungry you know. You're just bored, or lonely.' Sometimes I turn around and go do something else to address those needs, and sometimes I go ahead and hunt a snack. But I think it's a sign of bigtime improvement that I know what I'm doing and can make choices about it instead of letting it control me. YAY!!
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  • v SSUESM
    Keep listening to that quiet little voice, it gives very smart advice! Enjoyed your blog and you look gorgeous in the new picture!

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