Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I was just going through my e-mail and I saw the Christmas Eve picture with the church choir I sing in. I can't believe how big I've gotten. It's crazy because, when I look in the mirror, I don't see that. I mean, I think I'm big, but when I see pictures sometimes it really catches me off guard.
So, I went back through my Facebook timeline and pulled up some pictures from my freshman year of college to see the difference. I can't believe I thought I was fat back then. I have GOT to do something! I want to have kids soon and I'm terrified that if I get pregnant without losing weight first I'm going to balloon up to 300 lbs or something and be like that for the rest of my life.
I think I'm going to carry some of these pictures with me and look at them everytime I'm tempted to eat something bad or to skip the gym. The fact that I'm 25 and have never once been able to wear a bikini in the summer is just sad. I need to change that before I'm too old. I want to be able to feel confident and sexy and to not try to hide behind layers and scarves.
I wish I could change NOW!!!!