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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I was just going through my e-mail and I saw the Christmas Eve picture with the church choir I sing in. I can't believe how big I've gotten. It's crazy because, when I look in the mirror, I don't see that. I mean, I think I'm big, but when I see pictures sometimes it really catches me off guard.

So, I went back through my Facebook timeline and pulled up some pictures from my freshman year of college to see the difference. I can't believe I thought I was fat back then. I have GOT to do something! I want to have kids soon and I'm terrified that if I get pregnant without losing weight first I'm going to balloon up to 300 lbs or something and be like that for the rest of my life.

I think I'm going to carry some of these pictures with me and look at them everytime I'm tempted to eat something bad or to skip the gym. The fact that I'm 25 and have never once been able to wear a bikini in the summer is just sad. I need to change that before I'm too old. I want to be able to feel confident and sexy and to not try to hide behind layers and scarves.

I wish I could change NOW!!!!
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    It's good to know I'm not alone in that feeling!

    Tabby, I'm so looking forward to that healthy pregnant feeling one day...that's a big part of why I want to lose weight. I'm so nervous that I'll miss out on that feeling if I get pregnant when I'm too heavy!
    1850 days ago
    Isn't it crazy how we are rarely happy with our bodies?! I used to think I was fat when I weighed 125 lbs. Now I look back and think "really?! I thought that was fat?"

    The funny thing is that I felt the best about my body when I was pregnant. I felt alive and healthy.
    1851 days ago
  • DEE1221
    The camera doesn't like me. I always have some stupid look on my face. Sometimes it even takes away from how big I look in the pictures! Haha. Nope, it doesn't. There I am with a stupid look on my face and looking fat!

    WE CAN DO THIS! I'm too old to be bikini worthy, but I would like to feel better about wearing a swimsuit.

    Hang in there, girl!

    1853 days ago
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